Hi,
This is all very very new to me. The past month for me has been both scary and eye opening. I could feel that something was different. I am just not myself. In the past month, I have had lots of tears and unexplainable sadness and lack of eating and been generally lonely.
I thought that it may have been jitters, as there have been many changes going on in my life that all happened in the course of 3 weeks. I am extremely close with my family and all five of us live in different states, I got a new job recently because I was miserable at my old job and I have not really coped with or been able to talk to my family or friends about my feelings.
I realized something was wrong when I had a panic attack (my first) at a family dinner. Shortly after, I realized that my feelings were not subsiding. I saught out therapy, as I could not handle and did not know how to handle my overwhelming emotions!
I am 23 years old and have never been depressed prior to now. I am seeing a therapist who has diagnosed me with a major depression. I am taking Prozac and I am almost complete with my first week. My emotions range from scared to sad and back again in the course of a day. I am having a hard time coping with the label of being depressed, but I know deep in my heart that accepting this is an important part of the battle.
I have a hard time accepting the feelings and moving on because it upsets me that I am a person who is filled with so much love and support from my family and friends, but still feel this way.
I have joined this online community as a way to cope and get better, along with my therapist and medication. I am hoping for a speedy recovery!