Hi there Nicegirl74, I haven't been on the site for awhile but was really interested in your conversation. Sometimes (well alot of times), I feel like the drugs don't make any difference. I also stopped taking mine cold turkey - didn't really start out to do that, I just kept forgetting to take them and then figured what's the point? I spiralled pretty low and my moods were all over the place - felt suicidal also - luckily didn't end up back in the hospital. I have already vowed that I will never go back there - unless I am unconscious and someone takes me. I was in there 3 or 4 times last year and that was enough for me. Anyway, i also started taking my drugs again on the advice of my family doctor and my counsellor but I really wonder sometimes what for?? The side effects do suck and quite frankly so does life so what is the point? I have also gained weight, don't sleep right (not enough usually), am shaky, have irritable bowel syndrome etc. so I guess it is hard to know what the heck to do. Anyway, I guess we just have to carry on one day at a time? I just wanted to thank you for your post because I could relate so much and it makes me feel better to know others feel the same and can understand me also! Thank you so much. I hope you are feeling better! Take care :)
