Barbarba,
Hi, I'm sorry I didn't get to reply to your last post. Since my parents went away for the weekend, I was bombarded with work not to mention the stress that came along with it. I'm really sorry to hear about your incident with your husband. I'm also terrified my family would find out how miserable I'm feeling so I can just imagine how you must've felt. I'm hoping maybe it'd be a good thing that your husband now knows. Now maybe he can be more supportive and you'd have him to help you through this.
Not being able to sleep. Being in constant pain. It's been several months but I still remember all too well. Feels like you're in hell and sleep is the only escape. But not being able to is nothing but torture. I was so desparate that I got my doctor to prescibe me a stronger medicine. He told me it would knock me out. Well, it didn't! I just felt worse the next morning. I got even more desparate so I took alcohol with the meds which I know is a BIG NO NO. Still didn't work. I know Barbara. I'm sorry you had to go through it.
I was listening to the Christian radio station this morning. And the pastor was saying how the painfull and hard experience we go through are being used by God so that we can help others. If one never went through same/similar experiences, how can we comfort the other? As hard as it was and I'd never want to go through it again, in a way, I'm kind of glad because I hope that it would bring some comfort to you to know I went through the same pain and I know how it feels.
God loves you Barbara and will give you comfort. And we're all here for you. Please let me know if there's anything I can do. I hope to hear from you soon.