Nerodia How have you been doing? Please let us know.

Hi Nerodia, Please hold off on quitting therapy. Let the therapist and/or your doctor know how discouraged you are feeling right now. Our Support Specialist are not trained to help individuals who are having suicidal thoughts, as it sounds as if this is what you are referring to in your post. If you're thinking about harming yourself please get the help you need by calling your family doctor or call 911 to talk about how you are feeling. Ask a family member or close friend to take you to the nearest emergency room. If you live in the USA, dial directory assistance and ask for a 1-800 suicide hotline or go to http://www.hopeline.com to get contact information for a suicide hotline in your area. We hope you find the help you need! Casey __________________________________ The Depression Center Support Team

Hi Nerodia It's hard enough trying to deal with problems we're struggling with. But it's always harder when there isn't much support around you. As much as my family loves me and tries to support me, if they find out (mostly my parents) that I'm suffering from depression and that I've joined support group like this or even kept taking meds, I know that their first reaction would be very VERY negative. Which of course is one of the biggest reason I keep things like this from them. I come from a big family and I'm lucky to have them. But still, sometimes feels like they're doing me more harm then good. I think it's safe to say that there are many of us that wanted to just "give up". Even though I survived through that feeling of void, that feelings comes back every once in a while. But with the grace and strength of God, I overcome those feelings time and time again. You mentioned you're a born again Christian. I was listening to the Christian radio station this morning. And a woman shared her story about her tragedy and how she overcame it through God. She and her husband was on a vacation in Jamica and unfortunately, her husband died while scuba diving. She was straned there for 11 days all alone because as much as her family wanted, they couldn't get there. She even said that as she was flying back to the States, she wished God would just take her. (This was during the September 11th chaos). She also mentioned that as desparately as she wanted her family to be with her and how much she relied on them more then God, they couldn't be with her. So she began to listen for God's words more carefully. I think I've been babbling too much. I just want to say that even if you don't have any support physically near you know that God is always there for you. He will never give you any tasks that you can't handle. Rely on Him. I think bringing you to this support group is one of His way to help you through this. I certainly thought so when I joined. I hope you can take some comfort in knowing that there are people here who understands and share your pain. I'd like to suggest a good Christian book that might be a good read. I've already mentioned this book few times in other postings. I don't want to impose so if you're interested, plea

Hi Nerodia I have full understanding of how you feel, (I hate it when people say that if they have not gone through the same) but I honestly understand the feeling. I also understand how it feels to be in a place where there is no support group. That is why web-sites like this one is such a wonderful thing. Yes, you don't always accept the advice given to you by doctors, because not all of them have gone through the same, but here you will find all sorts of people who have had different experiences, either good or bad, but we all have experienced the feelings. What can I say. Hang on. Things will get better eventually. I don't know how long it will take, but believe me, they will get better. Have a look at some of the other responses of people on this site. The questions brought does not necessarily have to be the same as what you are asking, but go and look for answers in some of these responses. Let us know how you feel, even if you are getting better, or even if you are feeling worse. Maybe go and see the doctor and tell him how you are feeling. GO AND ASK FOR HELP. Do not try and get through this alone. It is extremely difficult. Good luck

There are no depression support groups in my area, I'm getting a Ph. D. in Environmental Science and today could not pass a 'lifestyle test' to work part-time in a Christian bookstore. My husband wants me to quit therapy and 'be happy' so that I want more 'intimacy'. I am on meds and trying as hard as I can to have a 'positive attitude', but it is to no avail. I have no parents, a few distant cousins and an in-law family that doesn't approve of meds/therapy/born again Christians....When will it end? What do I do? That last day feels so close right now.