Hi Mina, I know it is difficult admitting you may have depression. And yes, there will always be people who think you should just snap out of it. But your true friends will stick by you. I know you're afraid to reveal your secret thoughts to a therapist, and it may take a little time, but believe me, it's so liberating. Here's a person that will listen to you and not judge you or make you feel embarrassed. In fact, if you do feel that way, you may not be with the right therapist. In my own experience, I've been able to unload so many thoughts that I've had most of my life, and I felt so free and safe after doing that. Take advantage of the professional help, including medications if necessary. Best of luck to you!