Dear Tabbeycat,
Sorry to hear that things are difficult for you right now and there are many people here who have felt the same way, and are really willing to help you out.
If you are feeling like hurting yourself, we cannot stress enough how important it is to immediately contact your doctor, someone who is close to you, call 911 or visit www.hopeline.com.
As you can see from the posts there are many people here who are struggling with and beating depression. If you are having trouble visiting your doctor about your condition, take the depression test and email the results to them. That way you'll be able to tell your doctor exactly what you are feeling. The Depression center and this group are here to help you, so keep us updated on your progress.
Take care,
Susanne