Hi Quitter,
Congratulations on your 46 days!!! You are doing really well, but I think you are expecting too many results too quickly. Some people are able to rid themselves of those thoughts early on, but, if we are honest, many of us will relate to every word you wrote and at various times in our quits.
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The quitting process is just stretching on, and on, and on.
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That is exactly what is happening, as it needs to stretch on and on. You did not learn to smoke quickly, and, for that reason, it takes time for a quit to become established. Some one told me you need to go through all the seasons to feel you have met all the challenges....everyone is different.
Somewhere in your mind, the inner junkie is tying your psyche to smoking and not allowing you to let go. I remember thinking many a time..."Well I can always go back to smoking!" Suddenly one day, I just knew I would not and could not go back. I wrote a farewell letter to smoking to help me make that break....it was around 84 days I think. Anyway, I did not look back, but there were still trials ahead, and my real comfort came much further down the line.
You are still 'young' in your quit. For now, just be really proud of what you are achieving, remain positive, and look forward to the days of freedom ahead. Know that this release WILL arrive in it's own time. Your attitude and determination will all go to bring that about.
Stay strong! NEVER LOOK BACK, THE FUTURE IS AHEAD!!!
Lolly. :)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 11/25/2004
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 509
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 17,837
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] �2545
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 70 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 49 [B]Seconds:[/B] 28
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$11,670.00
Amount Saved
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Days: 807
Hours: 21
Minutes: 32
Seconds: 56
Life Gained
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5835
Smoke Free Days
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116,700
Cigarettes Not Smoked
