Oh MmmaD,
Your post made me laugh and cry. Sounds like how I was the first month or two. I had quite the vocal argument going with myself. When the cravings or urges got strong, it would go something like this;
Addict me(AM): "I want a cigarette"
Non smoker me (NSM): "Of course I want a cigarette. I always want a cigarette, especially after work (while cooking, taking a break, etc, etc, you name it). But am I going to have one? NO!"
AM: "Why?"
NSM: "Because I'm a nonsmoker, that's why! And nonsmokers do not smoke!! Ever!!!! Ever!!!! Ever!!!!! That's why!!!
AM: "Just one? A puff?"
NSM: "NO!!!!! Because I do not smoke!!!!!!! Period!"
And I repeated this as needed...sometimes 4-5 times a day. I'd end up laughing, because it was so ridiculous.
Also, like you Mamma, this quitting smoking has made me realize how much I value life. You can't reverse the decisions you made before, all you can do is work hard to improve your health now, and not smoking is a really good step in that direction. My mom is turning 90 next week, and she has had a pacemaker for about 25-30 years, and is still going strong. It is scary to face surgery of any kind, but many people go on to live more enjoyble lives afterwards when the problem is fixed. Let us know when your surgery is, and we will be here to support you.
You're almost through the hardest week. Hang in there a little bit more, and plan a reward for yourself. And, as unhooked says, shout Woo Hoo! You can't feel bad when you're doing that....lol
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]3/22/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 175
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 7,000
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1,190.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 24 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 20 [B]Seconds:[/B] 36
