OK, here goes. Although I was diagnosed with depression the first time 14 years ago, I have been off all meds for 6 years now. Last going off, my diagnosis was Bi-Polor and I was put on Prozak. I was pregnant at that time, and became so unhappy with the way my meds made me feel, that I stopped taking them. However, 18 days ago, I quit smoking and, oh boy, is it every coming back. Only I don't know how to deal anymore. I don't want to go back on meds, I just want someone to talk to. I have always been afraid to try a support group, afraid of being laughed at i suppose. But for my families sake, and mine, I need to do something. It can't keep going on like this. I cry all the time, hide in my room, and won't talk to anyone, or go anywhere unless I have too. And I will NOT tell the doctor. Last time, they made it worse in their t=search for the right diagnosis and meds. I went from mild depression to bi-polor and hospitialized. I don't want to go through that again. Someone, please help me to live again.