Something in my past keeps me from getting depressed. A trauma should cause depression but in my case it works the opposite. The trigger sets off the thought that I can not let them win by getting depressed. It sets off a block that forces me to go on despite adversity. I get a blank spot where the depression should be which I suppose is a form of anxiety except it doesn't have an effect on my ability to function. It isn't a feeling or mood I like but it also does not cause anxiety or panic. I can live with it.
As I mentioned before, I was in hospital not long ago for depression. Since then I have been working hard to have healthier habits and to heal from the depression.
One of my biggest fear is to get so depressed again that I end up back in the hospital or have to have shock treatments again.
Since I relapsed from the panic disorder and gad, I feel a bit more depressed. And that in turn scares me and makes me anxious. You can see how it isn't good.
I was wondering if anyone else has had a similar experience of anxiety and depression influencing each other??
