Today is my birthday and I am trying to feel good so my family will enjoy the day, we made it through Hurricane Katrina, it was not too bad it was weak nothing like the ones last year. I am on day 12 of the Paxil, the side effects are rough but I trying to handle them, I prayed for my "present" that I can recover and feel better. I woke this morning coughing up mucus and feverish, I think I caught my little boys virus, the anxiety feels a bit better, but it seems I am more depressed than ever! I cannot understand how an antidepressent can cause MORE depression, I feel this all day sadness, like someone stold all my joy, I am sure the virus is not helping, also I have not appetite at all and when I do eat sometimes I regurgitate and I hate doing that because sometimes a little blood comes up and that scares me, does anyone ever feel like they are "dying" Is that a strange question? I feel empty and unhealthy and I so want to be normal again. I want to enjoy my birthday, my son wants to celebrate, I do not know if I should discontinue the Paxil if its causing this depression that is not good, and of course the virus concerns me its like one more thing to deal with. Thanks for listening gang, I hope everyone is well. God bless, Debbie.