Thank you everyone. I went to a urgent walk-in clinic last night. He said I had "E-coli" I do not think the kind you get from raw meat but the kind you get in your urinary tract, it went to the kidneys and I am afraid it went to the blood. My husband and son are back, my husband is shocked I am actually sick, he thought it was anxiety, I knew I was sick, anxiety does not cause chills fever and urinary symptoms, I am just happy my son is back. I am going to rest a few minutes and post back, they put me on "Macrobid" something for nausea and perscriptin alleve for aches and pains, I have not taken that yet. I will post back, I think the macrobid is making me so tired and I just want to rest a minute. Thank you, Debbie.

Oh Debbie I am so sorry your husband took your son from you! I feel like my heart is breaking for you!! You have been through so much already! Being a mother and because I've gotten to know you through your posts, I know how important your son is to you and I just so want to grab your husband by the shoulders and shake him! I am so sorry he took your son!! In times like this, it is so hard to know what to say but the first thing that comes to my mind is advice that I could see coming from my father if my husband took my boys. I have a ton of respect for my father and his advice has always helped me get through so much my whole life. He's kind of harsh because he his a man, but he is very strong and that's how I want to be so I listen to him with both ears. If this was me, he would tell me - you have two options. You can either lay there and die or you can get up, dust yourself off and decide that today is the day that I make a change. You have to get yourself to the hospital and demand that they do what they need to take care of whatever is making you so sick physically. Demand it! Tell them every single symptom you've been having - including the symptoms with the meds they have been giving you. Demand they give you something like Amoxycillin if they are going to give you another prescription. Don't let them push you out like you don't matter and don't let them force you to take another prescription that could make you sick! Do whatever it takes to get physically healthy and strong. It is up to you. Once you are physically well, you have got to work on your emotional well being. If you want your son back, the change has to come from you. Do not roll over and say, ok, maybe this is for the best. You are that boy's mother and he needs you just as much, if not more, as you need him so do not allow your panic to take that away from you! It doesn't matter if it takes a few days, a few weeks, a few months or even a year. All you have is right now and it is up to you to make a change in your life. Get ahold of your psychiatrist and tell him or her, this is what is going on - I need to get this under control and I need you to help me do that. Do it for your son and do it for yourself! It doesn't matter if your husband leaves or stays. Yo

Hi Debbie, I know this is so hard for you. You have to seek medical treatment, you can't keep feeling like this. I know you are sick and I am sure it is skyrocketing your anxiety. Is there another hospital in the area that you could go to? I have done that before, the one in my area is not well known for it's treatment, so I have drove 45 miles to go to a bigger and better hospital. YOu must be emotionally and physically exhausted from what you are going through. You do not need to be alone right now. Maybe a different hospital would keep you for a few days and get you stablized and maybe on a good medication if you are not on one already. I have seriously thought about checking myself into in-patient just for my anxiety and panic, the thoughts that I have just send me over the edge sometimes. Take some times now, get medical treatment, and get yourself better, you're not going to be able to help or be there for anyone else until you take care of yourself first, maybe this is the perfect time for you to do it. Don't give up, you are not going to die, I know you feel like it now, but you have the right to the best medical care, and I know what you can get better and have a happy life, just hang in there and do whatever it takes to get yourself better, you cannot worry about anything or anyone else now, just take care of yourself. Thinking and praying for you. Becky

Hi Debbi, I am also sorry about your husband and son leaving you. I do to, feel you should go to the hospital and maybe speak to a doctor about your concerns. Do you have a friend that could take you there. If you don't have anyone maybe think about ringing a counsellor. Please keep us posted. Ruby....

dEBBI YOUR NOT GOING TO DIE IF YOU WRE THEY WOULDNT LET you leave the hospital.I dont like that you are alone but i know im the burden of my family also..Anxiety makes every symptom more intense and than your mind runs of with that symptom..I cant wait till you beat this,you would make a great spokeswoman for this disease..I hope you dont stay there alone keep us posted.. Prayers outlaw..

Debbie i am so sorry to hear what you are going through you need to go to the ER and tell them you need to be admitted until you get sorted with the proper meds Debbie you need to do this for yourself it is not a bad thing dont feel like it is i wish there was more i could do for you but please go to the ER.You will get through this you will be ok please believe that. Lulu..

hi debbie iam so sorry to hear about your son and husband.can you get anyone to come stay over with you,i think you should have company right now,you wil overcome this,i really think you need to get to the ER so they can give you proper meds that will help you.does your husband think you are doing this to yourself.please stay strong you will get better i will pray for you lynn

Debbie, I am so sorry about your husband and son. Is there anyone you can call and get to the ER right away? Don't give up -- you are so strong...If you need to talk log onto the online chat -- I am already logged on. Get someone to come and get you...you shouldn't be alone... I am really worried about you....hang in there....you are not going anywhere...please have faith and stay strong...God is always with us... Sending you prayers, B

My husband took my son and left he said that I cannot put them through or subject them to this any longer I cant believe it but then again I can perhaps it is better for my son not to see his Mother die. I am not any better, the antiobotic was bad I broke out in a rash and the ER told me not to take it, I have called 4 doctors on my plan and none will see me they said they are booked, I am shaking so bad my stomach is so queasy and my body aches, I do not know if I picked up a flu bug in the ER or its part of the UTI, the hospital said I must follow up with my primary but he cannot see me till Sept 3rd! I begged on the phone, my psych nurse even called their office but they said no. I am afraid to go back to ER they do not seem to believe I cant be seen till Sept, I do not know what is physical or what is emotional anymore, I keep waking up with sweating and chills but I have no fever, the UTI seems to be gone but I do not know, my primary will not even check my urine. I really feel like I am dying this time, my husband took my son our car the money and just left, I feel like I have an awful flu I cannot get dressed or hardly get out of bed, I do not know it its sickness or panic every bone in my body hurts and my stomach feels like its ready to fall out, I am so scared to be all alone even through my husband was not much help at least I had someone here and my son was the only one keeping me going, I just wish I could distinguish between whats physical or emotional, my husband told me I am never going to get well and I must want to die so just go ahead and do it, he is not an evil person he has just had enough, I want to take a Klonopin to calm down but I am afraid because of the Levaquin I took caused liver problems, what does it mean when your whole body aches and you keep vomiting, I know that cannot be a UTI. I am sorry, please pray for me I have to lay down I am so dizzy. Debbie