Well, today was my stepfather's funeral. Strangely enough the misery of losing him completely drowned out my anxiety. I drove myself an hour away from home to my sister and spent two nights there. That was quite an accomplishment, though I had to sleep with the tv on and was a little anxious at night. Now as if this all isn't enough I have to fly to Michigan tomorrow to babysit my niece for three days!!! My mom was suppose to go but my other sister is in labor so mom won't leave her. I just can't believe this is all happening when my anxiety is so bad. And all this is preventing me from finding treatment providers too. I just feel like curling up and crying. Ok, enough venting, I'm just so wiped out from this anxious episode, I don't know why. Thanks for listening, Rachele
