It really depends on how much I am getting done and how sore I am. Yes I get lonely but I'm not used to sharing my pain or fatigue. I'm one of those people that doesn't look for company when I'm tired or sore. How could I, there was no one before? Some things will need to be adjusted to.
The biggest problem for me is going to be letting go of my aloneness in my coming relationship.
After more than ten years living alone with just a cat (cows don't really count) how does a person adjust to the fact that everything you do now involves and affects another person. There are some pleasures in being alone in your surroundings that just are not the same shared. There are also some things that are far better shared.
I find that with age and infirmity I have too much time to fill. There was no such thing as lonely when I could stay busy the whole day.
Going to the coffee shop tends to make me irritable when I leave not lonely. I usually can't wait to get back to my projects.
Does anybody realize how "exposure" solves the problem of loneliness? I used to not feel a need for others, but with age, I feel my isolation. I used to be able to do these projects with great zeal and optimism, 24/7.
A snippet from a poem suggests how loneliness can be productive, but it's hard to admit the pain of isolation, isn't it
"After the noon hour, the light becomes precious
In the shadows the birth of the stars commences.
The great silence.
You are alone, but not lonesome..."
from the book by Peter van Breemen titled "Summoned At Every Age". p. 91
