Shadowkins and Davit, I'm squeezing both of you back.
You guys cheered me up. Thanks for being there, seriously.
I didn't want to scary bug you all with the details, but I feel like I can now. Here it goes... a family 'friend' that I'm not so fond of may be visiting with her husband this month. She's really critical and has given a lot of lectures to me in the past when I was still "normal" and now I'm anticipating what she will say to me now that my life style is 'different'. So I blew up and went hysterical to my family and it makes me feel like why can't I handle it all anymore? I then felt bad for making a big deal and I also had to ask my support person to take me to get my errands done. In the car, I started to not like me again thinking I wish I can do all of this on my own. I also felt like the lady I had to talk to didn't like me because I was not as outgoing as her and became self conscious. The self pity won't leave my head. Thanks for letting me vent and thanks for still giving me a hug, I really need it. Now I can really say oh well, and hope for a better day tomorrow.
Ah! I'm so sorry you are feeling bad, I'm sending you a big hug and telling you that you are not a bug but a wonderful human being. Today was kinda yucky here too, the weather is rain and snow...colder than all get out, so it sure makes putting a smile on your face a little harder. Was the weather crappy where you are too?
Just sit back and have a nice cup of tea and think of all your friends here ...be good to yourself, you deserve it and keep posting, we'll continue to send loads of hugs and encouragement.
Today I'm feeling pretty depressed. I feel like I'm such a bug to everyone and I don't like myself thinking that way either. Feeling lonely and needy and yucky. Oh well.... just venting thanks.
