Sorry havnt been here for you guys last two days but things are happening fast to me at the mo .
I got a letter saturday to make an appointment for my operation , ooooo thats not a good thing for someone with anxiety to do . Book and make the appointment theirself i mean ! Well it hit me opening the letter that it was actually real , oooo axiety came back big time but fought it with everything i had which wasnt alot lol .
Monday i take my daughter to the asthma nurse and got clobbered by the recepionist . The doctor wants to see you but he's on holiday can you come in the morning and see another one
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, was exatly how i must have looked ! Its ok they said its only about your medication ( my anti depressants) . Phew !
Went in the morning , hmmmmm . Doc asked me if the meds are working , how are they making me feel . I dunno ! In too much discomfort to notice i said , didnt go down well did that lol .
Anyway only had to see them because computer took me off repeat prescription so back on it again . That was tuesday .
Well later on i began getting really uncomfortable , no thats doctors terms . I was hurting , and big time now . It is making it so hard to breathe , it hurts if i eat and not just dairy stuff anything sets it off . The whole of my upper abdomen is so swollen(well thats how it feels dont know if it actually looks it ) thats why i find it hard to breathe . Months before this i thought it was a sympton of anxiety now i know its due to the gallstone . But now the pain is setting the anxiety off last two nights had attacks
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Now i still go out everyday to the shops with the children but i cant manage very long at all .
Ok this might sound silly but i am doubting myself / the man who gave me the scan . Because most of my pain is the WRONG side of my gall bladder , yes its uncomfortable gall bladder side but the other is so bad . Im worried they got it wrong because i ate before my scan remember i said that . Oh its that nagging doubt all the time .
I did make the appointment and nearly fainted ! Thought it would be after christmas with waiting lists like they are but no its 11th SEPTEMBER arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh omg thats so soon .
Well ive got everyone down now so will say sorry about that , i just hope my symptons ease cos i dont think i can handle this much longer . Trying to keep it together for kids sake
Ooo gone tearful so am off , i have been reading posts when i was awol just couldnt post myself to you . I will try better .
Love to all CD x