Hi all, I am going up and down with my emotions all day. Although I posted a success story, I wanted to vent about my discouragements too. I feel really dizzy today and I have migraine and sinus pressure and lumpthroat and my face feels a bit tingly. I know this is because I keep thinking about it, but today my paranoia seems a bit too high and I seem to not be able to control it. I was trying to find a new doctor since I'm in a new area but the process is taking forever and I get frightened.. I feel so insecure if I don't have a doc. I also didn't go to my classes today because I was way to anxious. I feel embarrassed about it even though I try not too. I feel like, geez Miki, it's only the 2nd day of class and you skipped it already!!! My goal was to keep at least one class... and I am juggling 3 at the moment. I need to remember that, but it's hard today. I also become afraid because I tried to drive right now but was too anxious to do so, and there is no food in the house I'm afraid what my husband will say to that. I haven't settled in yet and I'm becoming terrified of everything. I think about what if I end up not being about to get out again and I can't be responsible for even maintaining a life. On top of that with my husband. I try to snap out of it, but it's an on and off thing every second.. my minds are arguing. But I haven't given up hope. Maybe it will all pass tomorrow. I've done all that I can to this point and I'm proud of that. Maybe I need to take a nap and start over. Thanks for letting me vent.
