Well i went to my hospital appointment yesterday . I got there early and stood outside hospital with my mum and husband and cried lol . They booked me and said that
i would wait outside till im called !!
Was called started crying gently again . Nurse went through the blah blah blah . THen doc came and explained again WHYYYYY . When he asked did i want sedation
for some unknown reason i said NO , i will just have the throat spray . It was the most horrific things i have done in my life . BUT i didnt freak out , no matter how much i
wanted to . It was so awful , i even had flashbacks last night when i went to bed .
Well he didnt see an ulcer and took some biopsies . Will find out in three weeks for the biopsie . I was gutted and cried when i told my mum and husband , i wanted
answers to my pain that was all .
I didnt have a panic attack to the evening , im so damn shocked and proud that i did it . But would have to be put put if i needed another one i think lol
Oh meeting my mother-in-law has been FANTASTIC . Its like i have known her forever . Seeing her play with my kids brings a lump to my throat awwww
