Had an awful day yesterday , in alot of pain and was very anxious all day . Had a few panic attacks in the afternoon and early evening . Nothing i cant handle .
But went to bed really bad . Got thorugh it JUST . Finally went to sleep but bam woke up at 12.30 after just an hours sleep and another nightmare to a huge panic attack .
Just couldnt control this one very well at all . I was literally gasping , my husband went to bed at 2am to see me like this ( i am trying to keep it from him because it cant be nice for him to live with someone like me all the time ) .
He tryed to hug me but that made me worse . So i gave in and had a dizapam , thank god i still have an emergency few . Took me hours to get over it and fall asleep , then the school run wahhhhhhh .
Trying to be 'calm' today lol but fighting it big time .
So glad i didnt start taking my meds yesterday like i said i would or i would have blamed them !!!!!
