Congrats to you, Carols!! Look at us all go! We are getting healthier by the day! It's a great feeling waking up knowing I have one more day under my belt that I didn't break, one more day of only good clean air going into my lungs... One day closer to feeling 'normal' again! Wahooo!
Roses, totally true. What works for some may not work for others. I've tried CT before more times than I have fingers and toes, never made it to the 2-week mark (it'd always be some stupid inner rationalization that got me right back, like I can just have one tonight only with this drink....). And that's exactly the reason why I'm hesitant to remove the patch. I'm kicking Butt! I don't even want to smoke!! I just feel like I'm getting lost inside myself sometimes, and that's a feeling I never felt going CT. Like words won't come out and I can't carry on even a basic conversation. I'm calling it depression but I've never been clinically depressed before. I feel tiny, isolated, non-functioning, and SAD. I'll call it the Blues, then, because it's probably not depression.
What Sherry describes is more what I felt going CT. Lethargy, bubble-headed... like you're living under water. Everything is exhausting and looks warped and distorted and takes a while to process thoughts or do tasks. But that didn't last too long, so it was OK. And then I'd get intense cravings and break.
Carols, it's true - you forget about all the other toxins that were in there that mess with your chemistry! You're just a little ahead of me on your quit -- CONGRATS -- so it's interesting to hear your thoughts on quitting with the patch. I'm still on the 21mg, and my 14mg should be arriving this week, so I might step down early and see what happens. So hard to decide - there's no desire to smoke, but I can't really do much else either... what's preferable? Blues or intense cravings to overcome? I'm sick of hearing I'm 'weird right now' or 'not myself these days'!
So glad to hear it gets better. Chin up today, keep breathing, put a smile on and know that I'm a non-smoker for the rest of my life and that this too will pass. Weekend's coming!! :)