Thank you Debbie for your reply to my email. I'm glad I could help in some way, you helped me also, I really appreciate your response to my email. I am going to start the Zoloft tomorrow night. It's worth a try. I was on Paxil for a couple years myself and it did help, but like you I gained weight. Have you considered or tried lexapro, I know a few people who have taken that with very little side effects and had great results. A friend of mine was actually out joggin down the street at 5 a.m. in the morning. You would have to know her to realize what a big turn around this was for her, she was suffered severe depression. We just have to hang in there, we will find something that works for us. We have a lot to live for and I truly believe in my heart, even though I am suffering really bad depression and anxiety right now, that we will get through this, we just have to keep our faith and not give up. Our day is coming, and we will see the light at the end of the tunnel. I look forward to hearing from you. Take care Becky

Hi Debbie, I can identify with what you are going through, I feel a lot of the same things that you do. I can barely function. My anxiety is so high it's unreal and the depression makes it hard for me to function. How long have you been on Zoloft? I know that it takes a while for it to work. I have Zoloft now, but I am afraid to take it. You cannot give up. You may feel your prayers are being blocked, but they aren't. For myself, I keep trying to remember a scripture tht the Lord says, that he doesn't give us more than we can handle, and jokingly, I think he must think I am a very strong person. Have you tried other medications, I know that sometimes you have to go through a few to get one that works. You should consider calling your doctor if you have been on the zoloft for awhile and it's not working, if you just started it, it make take some time. Whoever said that your family is better off without you is nuts. I know that it is hard for your family to understand what you are going through, it's hard for mine. Tell your doctor how you are feeling, try therapy if you aren't going. I just started a couple weeks ago, I think sometimes things get worse before they get better. It took me 2 years to get up the nerve to go to therapy, it's still hard, I just keep praying that it will get better. You can't give up, tomorrow is another day, one day you will wake up and feel better, just hang in there, call your doctor and see what he thinks. How many mgs. of Zoloft are you on. Maybe it just needs to be increased or you need more time. You have a child who does need his mother, and you can get through this just as I can, right now I am going through a lot of the same thoughts and emotions that you are, but I am not going to give up. There has got to be something out there that can help me. I continue to pray. The Lord does answer our prayers. I know that for me right now, I feel like I am just existing, I am afraid of everything. I find no enjoyment in life, and it just kills me that I am like this and my family is also suffering the consequences. But, I won't give up and don't you either. I do understand completely what you are going through because I am going through it. You are one step ahead of me, you have the courage to try medici

I am really at the end of my rope. For four months it has been day in and day out panic that then turns to a black deep crying depression. Tonight I am all alone with my little boy and so scared, I am dizzy weak, my stomach is burning and hurting and I am still bleeding after 6 days of my monthly, I know that is being caused by the stress and panic by body is producing. My husband is calling my nurse-practioner and therapist Monday morning to cancel them, he he not going to pay for me getting worse he said. The Zoloft made me worse and when the Klonopin wears off the anxiety comes back badly, I cannot continue to live like this nor make my husband or beautiful son live like this, I have tried everthing, I have prayed so hard and even called a church yesterday, I am too old and weak to go through this again. I do not know where to turn? Nothing has worked and it keeps getting worse and worse, I can not even get dressed or function properly, I am so afraid and alone, my husband has turned on me in anger and my little boy avoids me, which has crushed me. Panic and depression are so bad, the thought of going through it one more week I am afraid it may kill me, how much can the body go through day after day with no relief, the medicine and therapy have failed me, I have prayer, but I feel like my prayers are being blocked, I feel I have done something terrible to deserve this, I just do not know what? Has anyone ever felt like this and came through, I am failing rapidly, I do not want my son traumatized, people have said he would be better off without me, I just want to get better and live a normal life, the panic never led up and now I am so depressed I have not eaten in three days, and the bleeding and my stomach pain that should have been gone and is still going on is scaring me to death. I am so drained. Is there any hope? thank you, Debbie.