Thank you everyone for your replies to my yesterdays post Panic/Crying Jag. Tonight I see my nurse-practioner, not the One-time GYN one the one who perscribes my meds, I am hoping so much she will help me. The Zoloft is not doing it, it increases my anxiety, the Klonopin helps but I keep my dosage so low so as not to get addicted, I was up most of the night, I always do not sleep when I have an appt, I think I dread hearing "everything is alright" when I am well aware it is not. I know meds cannot do everything, I would just like to find something to decrease the panic and health anxiety and ease the depression. I guess I want my nurse to say "you will recover" I get so scared I will not, I so want my life back, this everyday panic then deep sadness is destroying me, I need to find the joy again, I look at people and see they are "functioning" working, driving going about their business. I know the answer is NOT in medicine, but if I could just get something to get the floor back under me, My husband says if the nurse does not help me I cannot go back, he said he is sick of spending money and I get worse, I thought seeking professional help would help, it did before, and I just pray God it does again, before I go any deeper under. Please say some prayers for me to get the help I need, I have asked God to heal and help me and to give me the strength and courage to do so, I feel like I am being punished for this "relapse" and I don't know why, all I want to do is lay in bed, there the panic is not as bad. I wish I could go back on Paxil, but I know the weight gain she will not, the Paxil was working so good, the Zoloft hurts, I dread taking it because it causes the panic. I will let you know the outcome tonight. I just want to "function" and not worry that I am dying of cancer or some illness, the stomach pain and burning in my lower stomach is unbearable, the Klonopin eases it which tells me most is anxiety. Sorry so long, I just hope I get the help tonight I so need. PLease send prayers. Thanks, Debbie
