Dear Vickers, I am trying to get a hold of my nurse now, I am going to ask her if we can have a "phone session" instead of going in, my husband says he will drop the check off to her anyway today or tomm. I have a feeling she will say no that it is important she sees me in person, I asked once before last year and she said NO she needs to see me in person. I am afraid to go out, I have to walk up five flights of stairs and I just do not want to go out, I feel faint and dizzy and scared, I would rather just talk on the phone, I would be more relaxed, not make a fool of myself and she would get paid anyway. Just the thought of going out fills me with terror, especially during the day, at night I am better. I could take a klonopin, but then I get sluggish and depressed and dizzy which is almost as bad, should I take it? I do not understand why she will just not let us talk on the phone, my husband says he is NOT driving me there in this condition, since we just talk what is the difference if the alternative fills me with dread? Don't you think a phone session would be better so I do not faint or make a fool or myself? I am waiting for her call, but I think she is going to make me come in, I am actually afraid to leave the house, my stomach is hurting so bad it feels like something ruputured, I cannot get my breath or stop shaking, Please say some prayers for me and wish me luck. Debbie
