Happy,
Don't beat yourself up....you're not alone. The average quitter makes 7 attempts before they finally succeed. I know you can succeed in staying quit because I felt the same way once. You have to make up your mind and get yourself really ready to do it. Sounds to me like you just need a little more knowledge and some planning to make your quit "stick".
For starters, have you read the book by Allan Carr, the easyway to quit smoking? A lot of us here benefited from the book as it helps addicts understand why we smoke.
Have you done all the workbooks here? Do you have an NRT or some help to get you through the inital stages of your quit? Have you made plans to change or avoid your triggers and prepared things to do when a craving hits? That's how we keep our lives intact and our relationships, jobs and sanity together when we quit....planning and knowledge. Plus a lot of pampering and a good support system can go a very long way. Some people actually succeed by doing it cold turkey (remind me never to arm wresle any of them)!!!
A very wise man once said "quits don't just fall out of the air. People make them happen". I was fortunate enough to be at that place in my life when I read those words to know what I had to do to quit. I had to educate myself, get a plan of action working and make it happen. The good people here helped me do just that. If I can do it, anyone can do it.
You can do it too. You say you HATE smoking and you're going to "try" again. I believe you will! Continue to HATE smoking, but this time, know your enemy and instead of trying to do it, plan to do it. You can and you will succeed when your knowledge outweighs your junkie desire to smoke.
I'd wish you well and when you're ready...go kick the tar and ashes out of your nicodemon!
Pat
Knowledge is power and power will set us free.
My Milage:My Quit Date: 1/28/2007
Smoke-Free Days: 730
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 29,200
Amount Saved: $14,600.00
Life Gained:Days: 95
Hrs: 19
Mins: 50
Seconds: 10
