Kristilu. I so know where you are at. I often have joked about quitting 703 times, when in reality it maybe was around 30. But 30????? You are that addicted, that is why you are having trouble quitting. I did the same, I could go three months and then bam, one upset and I was back at it. I didn't find this place until I was close to my final quit. I am thinking that maybe you're just not quite ready.
It didn't dawn on me that I was an addict until I came here. Cigarettes are highly addictive. We are addicted to them. Some worse than others. I was one of the worse ones.
There is a TV show about addiction on A&E, called "Intervention". It is about different kinds of addiction, alcohol, drugs, food, prescription medication, etc. It is about addicts and how they struggle to be free of their addictions.
Bottom line, it shows you that when it comes to addiction, everyone is affected, everyone's life is changed.
I tried to put myself in that place and realized that I can't have another puff of cigarette ever again, no matter what. That is when the lights finally came on. One of my quit buddies told me "Close that door to smoking and never look back."
You will need to do more research Kristilu, to find out that your drug is killing you, and that there is only one road to freedom from it. When you figure that out, then you will be ready. We can tell you how to do it, and how you will feel etc etc, but we can't give you the desire or the committment - that has to come from within you!
I do so wish you luck, and please do keep on trying, until it works.
Never give up! Your freedom awaits! :)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]3/5/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 394
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 9,850
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $4,156.70
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 51 [B]Hrs:[/B] 16 [B]Mins:[/B] 5 [B]Seconds:[/B] 9
