I have only had this for 2 months now and I feel like ****, I feel like I am sick and getting worse, I can't guess how I would be at 15 years, give yourself credit because your still functioning and such!
Sam S
Yeah, I guess I feel like I have to be out on the watch for it or something. But by doing that I am EXPECTING it. By expecting it I suppose I make it happen. It's a self-fulfilling prophecy of sorts. Still, I have so much trouble letting go of it. It's like I need to control it; and that is my big mistake. I feel that by keeping a watchful eye on it I am doing myself some good. And it's exactly the opoosite. My keeping an eye on it I am keeping it alive. When I look away is when I seem not to notice it. I suppose if I stopped fearing it then I'd never have to look back at it. That's what I need to overcome.
Man this is hard!!! I've had this for nearly 15 years now and I still scare myself into panic. Shouldn;t I know by now that none of the things that I've imagined have come to pass?
Sure if I am not feeling anxious yet I start to think about it, it triggers a response by my body. Today for example I was doing fairly well this morning and then I started thinking about the panic and sure as anything it came. Sometimes I think when we do that it's the fear of it coming when we have the thought that is the trigger.
Hello Everyone...
I was wondering if any of you have gone through this during your times of panic? When I have been dealing with panic for some time and I start to feel better (i.e. I don't obsess over anxiety all day long), it actually causes me some anxiety. I know this probably sounds weird but hear me out. It's like I get so USED to thinking and watching out for anxiety that when I don't have it it seems like something is missing- and that causes me anxiety. It's like breaking a bad habit. Even though I know it's good for me to stop obsessing I can't seem to help myself. It's like I've lived with it for so long that I sometimes don't know what to do with my time. For example, I had a relatively good day yesterday. I went a long time without thinking about how I was feeling. Today it's like I've been pulled right back in. It's like I'm trying to figure out what worked yesterday and I can't seem to be able to do it again today. I think it is that I just simply IGNORED it yesterday. There was no ANSWER or method. I was just doing other things to keep my mind off of it. Today, of course, I have to try and "figure out" what happened yesterday and I find myself right back in the throws of anxiety.
Has anyone gone though this? Does anyone know what the heck I'm talking about? Any feedback would be great because I'm driving myself nuts.
Thanks a million!
Sincerely,
-Tony
