Anxioux,
What you are feeling is not unusual at this stage of a quit. It took me some time before I "knew" I was an ex-smoker permanently - months rather than weeks. It takes time for the "new you" to emerge. I will have to ask you to take a leap of faith that you will get past these thoughts. Looking back, I think that quitting smoking is possibly the most fabulous thing I have done, but at the time it was tough.
Rather than worry about where all this is heading, what can you do to make each day more fun? After all the effort that you put into the first month, it's pretty common to feel quite flat at this point. This is where a reward plan is SO important. You should be thinking of daily/weekly/milestone rewards....anything to lift your mood a bit. Many people base their rewards around senses e.g. music for hearing, a scented candle for smell, a walk with a view for sight, a massage for touch etc. It is important to have something to look forward to.
As to your new identity, it will come. It is a strange period of transition. Take it one step at a time.
You are doing great - look at those fabulous 63 days!
Lizzie :)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]4/23/2003
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 1751
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 26,265
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] �6,566.25
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[B]Days:[/B] 180 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 47 [B]Seconds:[/B] 2
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Days: 834
Hours: 14
Minutes: 21
Seconds: 53
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