Tryagain, you've accomplished a great deal in staying smoke-free for one year!! You're to be commended and congratulated, especially in light of the difficulty you've experienced, and continue to experience.
Most of the time...not smoking is a relatively easy matter for me. I do still have something like cravings... just nothing like they used to be.
I smoked a pack a day for 36 years, so I was/am definitely strongly addicted... but I knew that I was ready to go through whatever came (and for however long it took) to beat this addiction. I'm still going through it to some extent, but I prefer to enunciate (and live in) the progress I've made.
I'm not as completely at home being a non-smoker as I was being a smoker, yet. However, I'm healthier... I breathe easier, I'm not enslaved to a drug that's killing me... and I'm the role-model for my kids that I wanted to be, in that regard.
So, if I'm not as comfortable with this new identity, that's fine. I will be, and perhaps now... I'll get to live long enough to experience that.
Again... congratulations! You've done a remarkable thing, and I hope it continues... and that your fulfillment as a non-smoker increases as time goes by.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]3/6/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 326
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 8,150
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $3,015.50
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 53 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 24 [B]Seconds:[/B] 55