Kelly, I am glad you posted this because I have sent messages and I was worried. You have been in my thoughts, my prayers as all my friends are. John said to tell you he hit this wall at about the same time, he was like this, foggy he calls it, for a month, he can't really say what brought him out, but he said to tell you - it passes, you get through it and he is thinking of you also. (he is cramming for a HUGE test, not posting, just dictating to me - sri :) ) I think exercise with some music therapy is a good thing Kelly, as well as good Kelly time. The important thing to remember is that you were great before, you are awesome now, and you will be fine Kelly. You are just going through some stuff, working through it and will come out stronger for it. I miss YOU!! I am so glad you posted. Sue [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]5/3/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 201 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,010 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $351.75 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 19 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 46 [B]Seconds:[/B] 17

Hi guys, Well, I think I've worried some of you. Sorry about that. I have been avoiding FB & SSC cuz I just don't feel right lately. I think I'm one of those people who doesn't like to show much negative. I try not to dwell on negativity as well. Anyway, I was thinking about whether to give you all an update or not and simply hadn't because I didn't have anything really positive to say. Then, I thought more about it and decided that was kind of selfish. This is a support site for people quitting smoking. When I was first quitting I looked to this site for answers to many of the questions I was having about what I was going through. I still do. Well, I've decided to go ahead and be upfront and honest about what I am going through now in hopes that someone, sometime might benefit from knowing they aren't the only one. (Unless I'm the only one, that is...LOL) So, here's the bottom line. I am still a bit depressed. There are some things in my life that are somewhat more difficult lately than they normally would be and I have some additional stressors to go along with those things. But, I am not going to attribute how I feel to those things totally. It is my belief that, even though I am having some tough times, quitting smoking has had an effect on my 'mood'. I guess I thought that three months into my quit I would be back to normal. Haha! Normal! What is that? I was 13 when I started smoking! My adult brain has no idea what 'normal' is supposed to be and I expect it to be 'normal' after only a few weeks?! I believe my brain is lacking the function it needs to maintain a "good mood" right now due to the chemical changes. I also believe, if things were not as stressful as they currently are, I might be able to slide through it without as much of a problem. I believe it is exactly what blue cloud said, "I was depressed early in my quit and the minute somthing unexpected happened down I would go." What am I going to do about it? Well, I've seen my family doctor and was prescribed an SSRI which I took for a few days before deciding that I wasn't totally sold on the idea. I also plan to see a therapist. Hopefully, I can find someone who is educated in the effects of smoking cessation. I plan to resume exercise which I've been neglecting to do because I just haven't had the motivation and, most of all, I plan to be aware of what I am going through and do my best give myself a break. Thanks to all of you again for thinking of me and for checking in on me and for your kind thoughts and words. I really appreciate ALL of you as well as this site. It really has been a God-send for me. I don't know that I would have quit w/o it and you. Sheesh, that's a long post. I hope I've explained myself well and you all will understand why you aren't seeing much of me and not worry. It may well just be time for my learing curve. Who knows, maybe someday I'll be wise even (and not wise-ass for those of you who are thinking it (and I know who you are :))) Oh, btw, although sadness has been a real trigger for me, I have no intention of smoking...no desire. I still have impulses but that is all they are. Old habits die hard, folks, but they do die. :) [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]8/25/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 87 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,610 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $508.95 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 7 [B]Hrs:[/B] 19 [B]Mins:[/B] 28 [B]Seconds:[/B] 14

Hi Kelly, how could I have missed this thread? I must read CSQ more often! Hope you are feeling better Kelly. Even the most upbeat of people feel down for times. You're very good at self talk and self motivation and hopefully you will have rewarded yourself with something special. Rewards help the happy brain chemicals. Keep in touch. HUGS from Kev [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]7/12/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 129 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,225 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �541.80 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 16 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 43 [B]Seconds:[/B] 14

its sooo good to 'see' you, kelly! i'm glad things are working out for you [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]8/26/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 83 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,320 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $539.50 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 8 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 54 [B]Seconds:[/B] 3

Well, you can speak for yourself, sullydog, but I'm glad you're bad, kelly! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]5/13/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 184 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,680 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $2,024.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 18 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 34 [B]Seconds:[/B] 4

Hi Kelly, I'm glad to hear from you too! Nonic was a great help to me and I moved alot of his post over to my journal. I think you should too. I find myself going back and re-reading them about ever 30 days. I'm proud of you. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]7/4/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 132 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,640 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $528.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 17 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 45 [B]Seconds:[/B] 21

Kelly I mean Back not bad. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]8/8/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 97 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,261 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $485.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 12 [B]Hrs:[/B] 16 [B]Mins:[/B] 21 [B]Seconds:[/B] 40

Glad your bad Kelly, Have a great day. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]8/8/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 97 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,261 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $485.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 12 [B]Hrs:[/B] 16 [B]Mins:[/B] 21 [B]Seconds:[/B] 34

Alright Kelly You just continue on the high side now...I know its not always easy and sometimes things just get to a bad place...But I think you are going to be just fine... nonic [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]12/25/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 322 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 9,660 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $3,381.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 58 [B]Hrs:[/B] 20 [B]Mins:[/B] 38 [B]Seconds:[/B] 11

See, I told you... lol No, really, I just wanted to add a special thanks to you, nonic. I was re-reading this thread and appreciate everyone and all they've had to say, but, I really would like to say another "thanks" to you for taking time to add such personal thoughts. You are always very giving and kind in your posts here and I, for one, would like you to know how much you are appreciated! Thank you, nonic! Thank you everyone! :) [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]8/25/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 79 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,370 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $462.15 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 7 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 56 [B]Seconds:[/B] 10