Hi guys,
Well, I had my absolute worst day at work in 4 years. I had tears in my eyes all day, I was so sad, I was thinking about my mom, who passed away last year,..I made no money..I thought about smoking every hour. Smoking thoughts are still with me everyday, but it has been so bad the last two days. I wanted to give up so badly. Why didn't I give up? I do not think that I could ever quit again. If I go back now, I will smoke for the rest of my life. I have "the beginnings" of copd (as my dr. put it). I would end up dragging an O2 tank around in my senior years, and cut at least 10 years off of my life. When we are in the "craving moment", it does not seem like we will ever feel better. But, thanks to scc, I know that I will feel better. As unhooked put it, short term pain for long term gain.
Bimo, I will not give up. But, I am being honest so that you can prepare for what is ahead. And, thanks so much Sue. It is nice to hear that someone who quit the same month as I did is going through similar feelings and thoughts. I love the wine and chocolate also. (I have held off buying more chocolate covered almonds). But, heck, maybe I should go ahead and buy some. I know that rewards are important Galeh and Ros. I have made up my mind that I will have some hot herbal tea on my breaks at work, close my eyes, calm myself, and list my thankful thoughts for being smoke free...that is a great reward. I will be glad when i do not have to work so hard at this. Thanks for all the support everyone. NOPE
new me
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]5/26/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 116
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,784
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $580.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 15 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 25 [B]Seconds:[/B] 45