Hi Gregor!
First let me clarify...I hadn't quit for eight years. I had actually quit twice for a total of just over a year between the two. What I meant to say was that after I started smoking again (quit quitting) it was another eight years before I could muster up the energy, strenght, faith, whatever, to take another go at it. Eight years lost, in other words. That is terrible to think of.
But, to answer your question, the first time I started up again I think it was simply a loss of focus. Or, as someone mentioned here or in another thread, possibly too much confidence. As I remember, it came back slowly with a puff here and a cigarette there and then one day I was back. Of course, that time I quit again pretty quick. Too bad for me I decided to get a divorce one night and drove directly from arguing with my (ex)husband to the liquor store for a pack. I smoked two packs that night and have been smoking until about 5 days ago (yay me!). That night I just wanted to smoke and I didn't care or think about the consequences. I do remember thinking the next day that I should hop right back on the wagon. I honestly think it only took me that one night to become addicted all over again. I couldn't even bring myself to the wagon after nine months of not smoking and only one night of giving in.
This time? NOPE. I won't forget. It's just not an option.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]8/25/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 4
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 120
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $23.40
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 10 [B]Mins:[/B] 29 [B]Seconds:[/B] 21
