Hey Tutti,
I am not on here so much these days as with the new job, there just never seems to be time. But YOU will remember me I am sure1 lol - The self pitying ***** who crept out of the woodwork a while back, maybe around the stage you are at now? and moaned about how awful my WHOLE life was, NOT just the quit?
And here I am. 133 days quit. I hardly ever get cravings now. I get moments that are more like, uncomfortable, know what I mean? Like the other night, my ex hubby called. I'll spare you the details except to say his new partner and soon to be wife had had a right ***** to my 18 year old's face and hurt and wounded her. Then told her she is NOT to be invited to her dad's wedding!!!! The ex called to make weak excuses for his partner's behaviour and I was just soooooooooo mad I was shaking with it. But these days, all I think/recognise is "I'm feeling shaky with anger I must get a handle on it" I don't think I must have a smoke!
If I can get to this stage Tutti, you can too. I cannot tell you how wonderful it feels to know that I have FINALLY thrown away the "crutch" and am dealing with real life in a real way. Right out there. Not hidden behind minging (is that just a Scottish word?!) smoke.
Stay strong. Better days are round the corner. Past 100 days is soooooooooooooooooooooooo nice. Spend your smoke money on something for that grandchild and remember your rewards are even more important on the tough days. Plan nice things just for you.
Love, Serenity x
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/10/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 133
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 4,662
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] �798
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 13 [B]Hrs:[/B] 16 [B]Mins:[/B] 50 [B]Seconds:[/B] 21