I've hesitated responding to this thread because I felt like I had made the decision to not ever return, so it was difficult to entertain the thought. But, after having persistent thoughts of smoking for two days, and reading through this thread, I realized that while it is as simple as "Just don't light up" (and I haven't), it is also a real and present danger, no matter how long one has smoke-free. So, I have been thinking about what it would be like if I returned to smoking, and I want to have it on record, for myself, if for nobody else:
[list]I would be incredibly ashamed that I could not honor my word to myself, my family, and those who love me, that I was forever quit
I would begin coughing again - all the time; when I laugh, when I lie down at night, when I bodyboard, when I walk...forget running
I would not have much energy to do anything, so I would want to sleep all the time
I would probably not live to know my grandchildren
My children would be left without their only parent as they move through adulthood
I would never have the chance to truly use my life to its fullest potential because I would be knowingly cutting it short
I would be admitting that dieing is preferable to living, and making that decision despite any of my believed spiritual reasons not to
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So, if that doesn't remind me what it would be like, please, someone else do so if you ever see me wavering...and I will gladly do the same for you
N.O.P.E.
-aloha
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/22/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 54
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,192
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $367.2
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 7 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 56 [B]Seconds:[/B] 42
