Hello- I have been suffering from aniexty and panic attacks for a few years now but I thought they were going away because I havent had one in a really long time until I started this job in Nov. It seems since then I started worrying about everything like that something was going to happen to me and that this will be the last christmas and why did we get this it must mean something bad is going to happen or thoughts like why am I taking so many pictures this year maybe that means something is going to happen. I feel like I am crazy to have these thoughts and I wondered if I am the only one who has these kind of impending doom feelings. Its like I feel like I amout of control. I am obsessing over things 24 hours of the day. I cant sleep at night because I am afraid I wont wake up. I am also getting married in June and I wonder if that maybe is a partial trigger because we had to postpone the wedding once already due to finacial situations. I just wish I could figure out where these attacks are coming from. I started with a bad dream about my dad ( who passed on Feb 1 2000) and woke up with the feeling I had to get out of the house right then and I didnt want to be alone because I was sure I was going to die that day but I didnt but I have been having attacks of some kind every day since then and that was like almost two weeks ago. I feel better than I did a week ago but I have feelings of helplesness and I feel dizzy right now typing all this down. My jaw feels tight and I have had tension and headaches nonstop. I felt sick two nights ago like I was coming down with the flu but then I felt great yesterday all day and today I am down and out again because its Sunday and I dont want to go to work tomorrow. It feels like I am on an emotional roller coaster right now. I have a severe phobia of the doctor which I find strange since most of things that I have read most people want to go to the doctor but I am so afraid to go and that they will find cancer or brain annurisms or tell me that I am dying. I am so very frustrated right now and scared and sad and I just want my life back and I want to feel good inside again. I hope that I am not alone and I wish someone could shed some light on me. These are just a few of the phobias that I exeperience ev