Cheermom,
I know exactly how you are feeling. I still feel that way, except that I am not crying about it anymore. I still feel akward, and outcasted from my smoking family, but I am able to join them outside without any huge problems.
This Christmas I have been sick. I have a nasty chest cold. I haven't felt like this since I smoked. Well, we went to my mother-in-laws house for Christmas dinner, and she has cats. I am very allergic to cats, so before we left, I took some cold medicine and my allergy pill. Well, for whatever reason, neither decided to work. I had a hacking cough, and my chest hurt so bad. I was ichy, and tired, and couldn't even go outside, as this was where the smokers were. I tried to, but I still couldn't breathe....... with all the smoke. When we were driving home,I told my husband that it felt like I had smoked a whole pack in 3 hours. I remembered that feeling.... So when we got home, I took my inhaler and felt much better.
My point of all this was that I understand how you feel about not fitting in with your family. My 'light' moment was realizing that my chest would lighten up very soon, and I didn't cause it to be that way. It was nice to know I am still healing......... You are too. These feelings will fade. And soon you will be able to join them outside, but only you will breath in fresh air, instead of poison.
Take care, and wonderful job! You quit smoking ~ that is something to celebrate!!!!
4my2girls
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/5/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 297
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 8,936
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $971.19
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 23 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 15 [B]Seconds:[/B] 59
