stormy,
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I am just so tired fighting this battle, as it seems that it never lets up, never gets easier with each day that passes.
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Oh my, how I remember feeling that way. Those constant, badgering, nagging thoughts of smoking, or trying not to, were absolutely exhausting.
Well, I agree with what you said; this is very much about attitude and positive perspective, but you know what? We just simply don't feel like it every day. We get tired, we get angry, sometimes we just wake up on the wrong side of the bed and that makes it hard to turn on the proverbial "positive switch". That's human and that's ok. I'm not so sure we should try to fight it off every time. We should experience a whole realm of emotions in life. That's what builds character. So get a bad,Bad,BAD attitude...but do it right. Be sure you get it against the fact that you ever picked up the first cigarette and your whole life ended up revolving around it, that you've exposed your loved ones to it and wasted money and time, get angry that this rediculous, poisonous, scrap of a plant wrapped in a piece of paper has had so much control over your every waking moment. When it's broken down for what it really is... does it not make you livid?? So, get it out. When you're done, realize that if what you're doing now isn't working then you have to do something to change the course you're on. If the thoughts and feelings are all consuming then instead of throwing away nearly 116 days to think of nothing but qutting again, the most obvious thing is to become so occupied with something that it distracts your thoughts away from smoking. Start in the morning, keep doing it and you'll [u]gradually[/u] build up time of NO smoking thoughts and that should help ease the feelings you're having.
Don't worry about feeling hypocritical and don't worry about others losing faith in you. Worry about losing faith in yourself. Keep at it and all the rest falls into place.
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I only want to feel like myself again and get over that "something's missing" feeling.
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Above all else this is exactly what you should want because that's when you'll know you've made it. Give yourself time to go through the healing process. Just get through this phase of the quit, stormy. So what if you
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