I have not been on here lately, however, if I have a few minutes I have come in and read. A lot of new people, I see. Welcome!
I am very afraid of back-sliding recently. I want this quit more than anything, but I have had a lot of stress over the last week or so. I have established a "Why bother quitting...my kids are trying to kill me anyways..." attitude.
My youngest son, 16, was picked up and charged with consuming under 21. He was drunk. I came home, threw out any alcohol in the house. I am worried what will happen to him. He is already on probation in court for--get this--fishing without a license. I have been pretty hard on him about that and because I know he is using smokeless tobacco. He really isn't doing anything the rest of us didn't do at that age---I just never got caught :blush:
My bi-polar 19 year old does not live at home because she doesn't like the rules--take your meds in order to live here. She announces she is pregnant. The father is her ex who liked to use her as a punching bag. :mad: She has decided she wants this baby. It will solve all of her problems, you know!?
My 21 year old son has been in the hospital and just had surgery yesterday. A severe staph infection in his leg. He will have missed several weeks of work. A car payment is due... :(
The oldest, 25, is 4 hours away, working, and doing very well in drug treatment. :gasp:
The 10 year old baby started 5th grade this past week. She is so very proud of her mommy and daddy for quitting :)
I'm quit; but I sure as hell ain't happy. Somebody isn't going survive all of this, and I am afraid I am the target! I am the familial "bad guy" because I don't sweep problems under the rug; every other adult in these kids' lives stick their head in the sand and pretends it isn't happening. Let's not talk about it and maybe it will go away...
I have whined enough. I have just enough time for a good cry and a shower before I head back to the hospital!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/23/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 81
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 4,073
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $648
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 8 [B]Hrs:[/B] 9 [B]Mins:[/B] 6 [B]Seconds:[/B] 31