OOF,
OH NO!!!! NOT YOU!!!!!!!
Well, in a way, I'm sort of happy about this. No, not because you smoked, but because you're back! :) Remember all the fun we had at the smober parties? Remember the "Ladies Only" thread that felt like a pajama party between all of us girls? We really had some good times back then, and now, we can have them again! I really hope you stick around this place for a while and don't go away. I've really missed having you here.
I know that feeling of failure sucks! I totally remember feeling like everything I ever wrote on this board was in vain because I'd blown it and couldn't be trusted to give good advice because I'd failed myself and everyone on this board... or so I thought. I want you to read[url=http://www.stopsmokingcenter.net/support/viewmessages.aspx?forum=18&topic=23843]this thread[/url] about my second screw up where I wrote almost exactly what you wrote here tonight. I want you to read some of the advice that I got way back then and I hope it helps you now as much as it did me then.
Please don't consider yourself a failure... you're NOT a failure if you keep on trying, which is exactly what you're doing now. We can do this again! Just hang in there!
Crave the Quit!
Pam
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/28/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 192
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 4,823
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $792.96
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 14 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 3 [B]Seconds:[/B] 23