Hi Redrosie! I just thought I'd reply to your post, as I have been reading through a lot of yours since I came onto this site!
I just came across another post this morning about losing your newfounded excitement about quitting. Although I am still in the beginning, and fully excited, this scared me a little. I too need constant reinforcement from people.
I'm not sure if this will help, but I scoured the internet and found some pretty discusting pictures of lungs and what smoking does. When I look at a person smoking, I immediatly picture what their insides look like. And then I pity them. But I don't feel to sorry for them as they know how dangerous smoking is, and they too make a choice, but their choice to smoke.
I don't consider myself a non-smoker. As non-smokers really never think about a smoke, or about not having one. I think of myself as an ex-smoker. I have and still am fighting a battle that is the hardest in my life, but I am winning. I have found that I have such awesome strength that I never would have found...... I think ex-smokers are above non-smokers, as we have had to fight our a**es off to achieve a goal that non-smokers never will.
Please stay strong. You are one of my HEROS. You have given me thoughts, praises, questions, but most of all, inspiration.
Maybe you can get away for the weekend with your kids, as you said they give you strength. Maybe they can can give you the push you need to get back in the ball game.
You can do it. I have faith in you.
****4my2girls****
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/5/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 11
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 231
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $35.97
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 22 [B]Mins:[/B] 19 [B]Seconds:[/B] 37