A Beacon of Light is what we are asking for in the 11th hour, yet here we are waiting for something Grandeur to come and whisk us away to some fluffy cloud. The truth is that WE are the Beacons of Light and are here for each other. My Faith in that is IMMOVABLE. Healer you are an angel bringing bright blessings wherever you go and you know how to express to others what they really need to hear in a way that we can all understand. That is a gift. And a gift with words is not something that comes easily to everyone. For myself I am a writer, I could not speak in public if you offered me my own island in Hawaii. That is the truth. But I also suspect that you are not the only one facing things that will need to be processed on this smokeless journey... I was thinking to myself earlier tonight after re-reading what I had posted how I thought that perhaps I had no right to be posting and responding on the boards here so confidently since I am only 7 days into it, and that maybe I had just better go to sleep. My next thought was, yeah a smoke would be nice wouldn't it? Just go ahead that's right, you have no right to be so confident. BUT then something happenned, I welled up and said YES I DO!! I WANNA LIVE!!! And I decided that my little 'me' was being absolutely ridiculous and that I should come back on here and read more about what I am going through. I am really glad I did. I am crying alot tonight too. You are not alone Healer, you never "really" are :) I really have to share this with you: I feel that your friend has signalled you that he is near you and supports you in your quit and sending you good positive thoughts with abundant love. So it's a blessing. He is with you and I really believe that you can just talk to him if you need to gain closure. I have done this personally and it works, it's just a tool that helps us deal with processing and gets us to process it out. I am here if you need to talk, I don't know when sleep will kick in but I am awake at 3:55am. Many Blessings, Eve :) [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 4/8/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 7 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 58 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $21 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 43 [B]Seconds:[/B] 9

Danita, Your relationship with Ken sounds like it was truly a blessing in your life... you had a chance to experience the kind of love and friendship that so many people on this earth can only imagine must exist... it is like God gave you your own special glimpse of heaven... Having lost someone myself I understand the pain and the void of losing a person in your life who has meant so much and I would never undermine the pain of that physical loss. But, if you search inside yourself you will know that it is now as it has always been. He has always been with you and you have always been with him. Nothing... not even his death can ever change that. I hardly know you but from reading your words here and on this board I am sure that Ken must be so proud of you for your amazing courage and strength. I know I am. Hugs, Linda

We are put on this earth for only a short time. It sounds like you gave Ken much happiness... that is what love is all about! My prayers to you Danita. Ron [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/12/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 34 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,202 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $229.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 7 [B]Mins:[/B] 37 [B]Seconds:[/B] 44

joyfulspirit- You're right - this is such a safe place to come to - it's my soft, safe place to fall, and I am so grateful. It's an amazing experience - knowing we are all here for one another, the giving, the taking, the love and compassion. Just amazing. I am doing the emotional work that comes with my Quit - I never knew about that part :) And thank you so much, I am proud of myself and I am putting one foot in front of the other. joyfulspirit - thank you so much for being there - thanks for your wisdom and your wonderful energy... [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/5/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 46 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,610 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $213.9 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 16 [B]Seconds:[/B] 41

Hi Linda - Thanks so much for your loving and comforting words... You are a Bright Light, dear one. Thanks for being here... [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/5/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 46 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,611 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $213.9 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 23 [B]Seconds:[/B] 21

Hi Rusty, Your energy always feels so good and so safe... You are a gift and such a blessing here - and I always look forward to the love and gentle compassion you bring to us. And after reading your words here, I always leave w/a little more wisdom :) Blessings, Love and Light- [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/5/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 45 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,609 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $209.25 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 6 [B]Seconds:[/B] 35

Dear Sunshine, Your beautiful name says it all. Blessing to you - healing is a process, dear one. It takes time. How blessed I am to have your hand to hold on my healing journey. And mine is always there for you. Blessings and Light- [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/5/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 45 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,609 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $209.25 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 6 [B]Seconds:[/B] 10

Thanks, Ron. Ya know, Ron, your compassion is so present on all of your posts, and your wisdom has blessed me, and I know it blesses others here. Thanks for being there, and for sharing your gifts. You shine your light when others lose their way, Ron. Thank you. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/5/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 45 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,609 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $209.25 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 5 [B]Seconds:[/B] 56

Dear Eve, Thank you so much for your kind and loving words. You express yourself beautifully, Eve. You just speak your truth from the mountaintops anytime... Your energy is compelling and healing... It's amazing watching you on your journey, dear one. There has been amazing growth, and I appreciate the blessings you bring to each of us. And you are so right - we are never alone; I needed to hear those words, thank you. I know Ken is here with me. I spent a great deal of time with myself the last few days, just took a break and had some very important ME time. And yes, he is right here with me. Blessings, dear one - and thanks for being there- Healer :) [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/5/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 45 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,609 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $209.25 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 5 [B]Seconds:[/B] 26

Hi Casey- Thank YOU so much for being here, for making this amazing and powerful healing and sacred space possible... [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/5/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 45 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,609 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $209.25 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 6 [B]Seconds:[/B] 58