Thanks ladies. I haven't started yet, I guess I'm trying to find 'the best' guided meditation for depression. I've browsed online a bit but found nothing yet. Crappy lately that is why I don't post much. I don't want to add anything negative. This forum I believe should be either informative or positive. I started as I said, 3 days ago on 37.5. Don't know if I should go back up to my inital dose of 150 and if so how fast. Or if I should stick to 37.5 for a while. If I could hear from someone who weaned off before, to see how they went back on, and how it went, their experience so to speak. What worked best etc.
ugh... it takes persistence and work.... focus... I'm in short supply these days. However, I have at times been able to sustain for several months and it does make all the difference in everything... how you feel, think, focus... etc. Thank you FF for bringing that up (give your dh a thanks) . If you are willing to try it, I will too. I need the motivation and the accountability. The other thing I need to start doing is walking regularly................. but let's not get too carried away just yet
Trying meditation sounds like a great idea, if you are unsure of where to start check out your local community centre. Sometimes you can find out about free meditation workshops to learn how to meditate! Also feel free to take a look at Session 12 on Relaxation techniques in the program. This session focuses on breathing and progressive relaxation. These are both great ways of getting into meditation. Give it a try and let us know how it goes.
Members, what have your experiences been with meditation?
My wonderful hubby took me to town to get my meds, I am starting at 37.5 again today. I realize the benefits outweigh the inconveniences.
I was also thinking about trying meditation. My husband keeps telling me it would do me good.
I just hope the meds will not have pooped out on me after weaning off? And that I won't have too much anxiety until the anxiety-fighting properties kick in. I know I can get more anxious before getting better. But I have clonazepam I guess worse case scenario.
Good to hear from you today. Please don't worry about living a life with medication- at least not right now. It sounds like without it, you aren't really living much of a life at all!! Thoughts?
Good luck. I'm really happy that you are giving the program some time and effort, which I know is very challenging for you right now! Great work! Try to see how positive that is.
Thanks to the both of you for your replies, and even for caring. And your posts were a bit encouraging. M I wish you'd said you were 100% ok, but it's a bit encouraging nonetheless.
Yes Tiana I'm pretty down, and anxious. I'm feeling kinda sick to my stomach right now with anxiety and all that nice stuff. I will give it a try, I have nothing to lose, and it's free. Who in their right mind would say no to that. I have started the session 1, almost down to the bottom. It was a lot of reading. I am going to try and go get the meds today, to start on Effexor again at 37.5. If I can find the courage to drive to town (about half hour drive).
I wish I could just magically feel better :(. I feel disappointed too, I really didn't want to live with pills. :(. Thanks again both of you, it's nice to know someone 's there.
Hmmm. How can I be more clear? The program is not the cure but the ROAD to the cure. You've gotta get on it! It will help! I can virtually guarantee it!
Sounds like you are pretty down right now and that is a place where not much is appealing or positive. I understand that. Do get started on the program, start your meds, keep writing. As Ashley was suggesting, be empowered with small steps and find the positive.
so... I had written a totally brilliant post and then lost my connection and all my thoughts
I was going to say something about hey you are already here and posting wouldn't hurt to give it a week. And get your blog started. write everyday. it is easier to keep a conversation going if you are blogging daily... that is all i can remember for now. Oh and it can get better. I'm proof. I'm not perfect but I'm no longer living in despair. so there. hang in there !
and then lost my connection and all my thoughts 
