Welcome to the forum. I was also very against taking antidepressants at first. I didn't want all those horrible chemicals in me. But as my doctor told me, if you had an infection, you would take antibiotics. Sometimes it is just a chemical imbalance in the brain and the tablets help you to function while you sort out the emotional stuff. You could try taking Omega 3 fatty acids so long. All the best with following the program and keep us posted......