josie....thanks for your advice....i am currently involved in the program ...yes, i have been seen by many psychiatrists over the years and have been dx'd with major depressive disorder, ocd, panic attacks, post traumatic stress disorder, borderline, and personality...the docs really do love thier labels....i take no medications due to a severe phobia of meds...i've been in therapy with many therapists over the years and i'm currently in cbt and have been for several years but do not feel it is doing me any good....after all these years i don't really think anything can help me...i'm 56 yrs old now and have attempted suicide many times and think alot about it all the time...but as yet have not perfected it...the only way i can continue to live in this life is to find some peace from all this torment...so as a last ditch effort i'm trying your program...wish me luck!